Thoughts in the back of the van...

Have you ever been so happy you could cry? And then you actually did?

As I was laying in the back of the van tonight, en route to Edmonton, it suddenly dawned on me that I would actually be seeing my friends and family again after taking off on this adventure 2 months ago. I then started thinking about the tour so far…and the people I’ve met, the places I’ve seen, the experiences I’ve had so far…6 months ago, I had no idea that this was where I would be. That my life would suddenly change. That I would take off on a tour across the country getting paid to do what I love most – perform.

All of that didn’t hit me until tonight. And I realized how happy I was. How truly grateful I was for this experience and most of all...for the people I’m currently sharing it with. My cast is a big mixed bag – all different people of varying ages and pasts…but somehow, we all fit together. And I love them all. They’re such wonderful people and I have fallen head over heels in love with each and every one of them.

I love my life right now. I truly am living a dream and I suddenly don’t want it to end. I want to soak up every last second I have of this experience. Because it is truly one of the best of my entire life.

I’m so happy. Words can’t even do justice to how I’m feeling right now. I don’t know how I managed to get this lucky. To be able to perform in theatres across the country.

This is something I will never forget. And even though there are going to be a bunch of changes coming up in my life this summer, I don’t want to stress about it now…I’m just going to enjoy the ride. And see where it takes me.

For the first time in a very long time, I feel whole. I feel like I am exactly where I need to be. Where I’ve always dreamed of being.

And I sure as hell am not gonna take it for granted.